The year of change

This year was definitely the year of changes..a few important things changed in my life..but the most important from far is loosing a dear person.
I say loosing even if he is still alive, I feel like I lost him. It is not mine any more. At this point I think I wanted it this way but then I am thinking : for a relationship to work you always need two..so where is the other one when one is sinking?  Faraway on his own island never looking at you.
So the new year will be stigmatised with a lot of changes for me starting with the one of living alone again..it feels odd after all this time to start again alone, especially doing the things he was used to do.
But how I moved out in a day and also did the Christmas tree alone and Christmas dinner alone, I will be able to live on my own.
I got to push myself forward because nobody will be there except God therefore it is good to feel like you have no support so you will became stronger.
May this new year bring you all bags full of health to be capable to do all that it takes to accomplish your dreams!
Happy New Year! 

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“I hate Christmas. Everything is designed for families, romance, warmth, emotion and presents, and if you have no boyfriend, no money, your mother is going out with a missing Portuguese criminal and your friends don't want to be your friend anymore, it makes you want to emigrate to a vicious Muslim regime, where at least all the
women are treated like social outcasts. Anyway, I don't care. I am going to quietly read a book all
weekend and listen to classical music.”
― Helen Fielding, Bridget Jones's Diary